February 2012
1 post
February Ramblings
In a few months I’ll be signing my THIRD lease here in Orlando, Florida. I can’t believe I’ve been here going on 5 years. How crazy. I’ve lived in 4 apartments, had 3 roommates, 2 jobs and dated and married 1 fantastic man. Saw the countdown I did there? Hahaaa! I’m so cheesy. Esposo and I are house hunting and I’m hoping it goes well. We need a 4 bedroom place but I’m willing to settle on a...
January 2012
4 posts
Dumped
So remember that time I eloped and 80% of my family hated me for it?
Yeah well…they still hate me. I’ve heard from my Dad ONCE since I got married 2 months ago. And that was on my birthday. My Dad usually calls me a few times a week just to say hello. My younger sister does too. As does one of my other sisters.
But now no one gives half a darn about me. The realization hurts. How is...
zmagasupergirl asked: About the pills - stop worrying! Remember - it's all in your mind. You have to control your thoughts, stop thinking about everything that can go wrong. Also, it is a fact that you are stopping pregnancy, but it is also a fact that you should have children when you are sure you have mental and financial funds for raising them: the most important thing for a child is for him to know that he is...
5 Thoughts in 2012
1. The work restroom is a sanctuary. It’s kinda funny/sad that the same place where folx drop turds (that word always cracked me up) is where a lot of us gals go to find solace during hectic work days. Three times this week I’ve walked in on 3 different women doing the most in the restroom.
-One was on the phone and crying uncontrollably (Been There)
-Another was standing at sink...
December 2011
5 posts
First Christmas Away From Home
….I was already weary about how it was going to turn out.
But it was actually pretty good. The first two nights were rough. As sweet as she, my Mother-in-Law tried so hard to get the house cleaned up of the Hoarder tendencies of my Father-in-Law. It didn’t work. Esposo and I were cramped into a tiny room filled with boxes and no bed. We ended up sleeping on a 2-inch mattress thingy...
Keep your head up, B.
I have to keep telling myself that.
It works most times. Today I’m struggling. My gyno called me in reference to my appointment last week and I have a bacterial infection. Nothing major. An antibiotic will get rid of it. The problem is, the antibiotic will more than likely result in a yeast infection. AND the bacteria may come back. It’s one of those reoccurring things. I also have...
Renewal
Well. Things are changing.
As a Capricorn, I am slow to change. While I can accept it, it takes time. And I don’t always have a positive attitude about it either. Unforgivingly so.
For one thing - I’m getting on birth control. I went to the gyno yesterday and there is clearly something wrong with me. This 2-periods a month thing isn’t good and he thinks these birth control...
Quotables
-The World Awaits-
Me: I really need to have kids.
Friend: Awww, is that clock of yours ticking?
Me: No. I just want to become a mommy blogger and get press trips to Disney World.
-The Christmas Song-
Me: Can we finally use the fireplace this weekend?
Esposo: No. I don’t trust it. It’s not even that cold. Why do you want to use it?
Me: So I can roast chestnuts.
-Not Ready For...
How Homeboy and I Met - Chapter 1
Cheesy, I know but I’m a writer. I’ve read enough love stories in my lifetime and figured I’d write one too. Except this one won’t be fiction. :)
After editing this, I plan to turn it into an actual book. You know….Shutterfly.com style. When my kids are old enough, Esposo and I will read it to them. They will grow up knowing that they are products of a real life...
November 2011
12 posts
mimsii asked: It helps if I fall asleep before my husband. But I do believe you'll get used to it. After sleeping with him for 6+ yrs I barely notice it unless I'm already having a hard time falling asleep. Patience luv...
O' Sleepness Night
Okay, y’all….I have a confession.
Esposo snores like a beast. And I’m not even kidding. Or exaggerating. He has a throaty snore that can be heard doors away. In addition to that, he has sleep anea. He hasn’t been diagnosed with it but BOTH of my parents have it and I know sleep anea when I hear it. It’s scary. Thankfully, my parents are now on sleeping machines so I...
Birth Control - the necessary evil?
Birth control.
It’s no surprise that I hate it. I don’t give a darn what doctors say. I don’t believe that artificially injecting hormones in your body is okay. Especially doing so for years and years and years. I’m even anti the non-hormonal birth control options because it’s still a pill or IUD that sits in your body. No way can they be side effect-free.
The idea...
zmagasupergirl asked: I know you are tired and that you don't want to justify yourself to others, but I think it would help your relationships if you would explain how you're feeling, how you do not feel close to people who didn't know about your wedding and how their hypocrisy hurts - they don't want to make the effort to get to know you and your life, and now they're mad? Well, wtf?! My point...
mimsii asked: Be happy love. They'll come around eventually or they won't. either way embrace your new family and live in love with him and his. The way I see it they may be concerned and others may be jealous of your spontaneity. Not everyone has your scourage. So I say again, LIVE IN LOVE and don't let the nay-sayers get you down!
Family turned Enemies, Part II
At this point I am just writing for therapy. If I don’t write my emotions out, they will fester into something ugly.
Soooo….
I called my Mom and told her about my sister’s mean text messages. My Mom cried. Which ALWAYS breaks my heart. I’ve only heard my Mom cry like….3 times and it broke me up then. Mom tells me not come home for Thanksgiving. She knows that my...
With family like this, who needs enemies?
It’s been almost a week since Esposo (formerly known as Homeboy) and I got married and you know what? I think I regret announcing it on Twitter and Facebook. I really do. People are really showing their asses and it’s taking everything in me to not curse someone out.
While I’ve gotten a slew of congratulatory emails, texts and phone calls, I also have an equal amount of crap...
zmagasupergirl asked: Congratulations! I am so glad you are happy. I wish you two all the best.
mimsii asked: Just wanted to say congratulations! Continue to be blessed and happy!
I did it.
I got married.
Without any regrets or apologies. 11/11/11 was a sweet sweet day and I’m just….so happy.
Homeboy and I did it our way. And it was beautiful. We had a small ceremony, exchanged vows (this time the official ones), did the legal marriage license stuff and honeymooned off to Disney World. We donned Mickey and Minnie groom and bride ears and everywhere we went people...
Buried
I needed a break from my desk. From this cubicle. From this office.
I don’t know how people DON’T go stir-crazy in cubicles. How can you not? How is working in them day after day, month after month and year after year okay? Sure, I’ve been here for almost a year but it’s my OTHER passions that keep me from going insane.
Some of my coworkers just work here. That’s...
Marriage: 5 Greats and 5 Worries
I made the mistake of telling too many people about our union. Now I’ve got folx trying to plan a wedding, makeup artist friends asking me if they can do my makeup and an ex-coworker trying to make me a bouquet. Sheesh. I realize that people want to help but what part of “There won’t be a wedding do they not understand.”?
Then I started to feel bad. Yah, I don’t NEED...
October 2011
12 posts
Gorgeous nail polish and a Father's fine words
Mira Mira: My nail polish is absolutely amazing right now. It’s the color of an old school chalkboard. You know, that hunter green-ish shade? I’ve topped it off with a super shiny topcoat and can’t stop staring at my nails. I’ve been re-obsessed with nail polishes lately. And getting a bunch in the mail doesn’t help. The other day I got close to 40 new bottles of polish in the mail. Craziness. I...
clericalrose asked: Hey B. This isn't really an ask. I've been reading your blogs since you started Clumps and I love Locrocker, too. I just wanted to tell you how happy I am for you & Homeboy. I've been rooting for you two since you first mentioned him and I'm glad that things are going so well
Bread, Jobs, I Do
The money thing: I had a mini breakdown over it again on Thursday. The busy man that is Homeboy made a lunch date with me and comforted me the entire way to the restaurant. I’ve got $33 in my checking account. Still gotta pay Best Buy. And on the 27th, my gym will withdrawal $29. Sooooo….yeah. It’s real in the fields. I get paid on Friday, but those pennies are already allocated...
Just tell them I'm a bum.
Well, now….
So I’m in my dining room/office/beauty room and I’m sitting at my table and I’m paying bills. I’ve got bills sprawled out all over the table. It reminds me of my parents’ dining room table when I was kid. Bills everywhere.
I was doing okay for a minute. I paid Florida Hospital. I paid Target. I paid Progressive. I wrote the check from my car note....
Crawling Up
The low I had the other day…that was a super low. A low that I don’t ever want to feel again. The day eventually got better. I went to the beauty lab, made some soap, met some new people and the few hours I took my mind off of my own worries felt….great. I really do love being at the beauty lab. I love my Sisters in Business, I love making soaps and candles and all natural...
If they ask why I'm crying, I'll say it's my...
I had a mini breakdown during my lunch break. Good thing I was at home. There is nothing worse than having an at work breakdown. If there is one thing you shouldn’t do at work it’s let them see you cry. I don’t give a darn what happens.
Anyway…
I was at home. Fighting this migraine. The weather changes have my sinuses all mucked up. I have insane sinusitis. It’s...
It's time to move up...
Today I realized that Clumps (while it has done some amazing things) really hasn’t changed much within the past year.
My traffic is consistent and not really going anywhere. Which is frustrating. I do a lot of freelance gigs that allow me to use my name and blog. My hope was that I’d be able to get traffic from those sites. But…no. Comments aren’t as prevalent as they once...
El año de el anillo
Bodas bodas everywhere.
And I find it to be a beautiful cosa. Tan bonita.
This post will be an abundance of Spanglish just because every time I visit mi hermanita and her familia, I feel the need to continue talking/escribiendo/thinking en Español for the next few horas.
But si…it’s the year of the ring. SEVEN of my high school/college/post-grad friends have gotten married this...
So much for that.
So I was over at my friend’s house like the good ole’ college days when she pulled out a video camera to show me her sister’s homebirth. Considering I’m not super queasy and open to the idea of a homebirth myself, I didn’t mind watching.
But uh…
Nah.
Now more than ever, I am thinking about being doped up to give birth.
I don’t know what I was...
September 2011
13 posts
Peace of mine
It’s been a whirlwind of a week and it’s only been…2 days. I am so incredibly bored with my job. So bored that I’m behind on my work. That means I am so unmotivated to do it that I don’t actually…do it. Which sounds crazy but I’m sure someone out there understands.
This week 4 people lost their jobs. They weren’t in my department but still. That...
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The Office and The Office Types
There are 2 types of people that work in the average workspace.
Those that want to be there and those that would rather crap bricks than be there.
Type 1, I have found, are either so numb to the mundane-ness of their job or….they actually care about their position. Type 1 folx come to work early, are generally in good spirits and do this thing called “stay after 5pm to finish...
Feeling/Not Feeling: The Friday Edition
Feeling
-Beyond excited that it’s Friday.
-Even more excited to see The Lion King tonight.
-Sexy. I look so good today.
-Excited about this venture with this brand. I’m honored that they asked me.
-Going home for lunch and sitting on the porch with Polo. Sometimes I’ll eat quietly while the kitten plays around and other times I’ll read a book. That same book...
Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
I have a confession.
Yes, another one.
I actually have quite a few. My soon-to-be therapist (whomever the lucky bloke may be), I’m sure will judge me tremendously and question how such a wonderful young lady can be so screwed up. Haha. I’m kidding.
Not really though.
So yes, my newest confession: You know that question “Where do you see yourself in 5 years?” And you know...
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12 Play
12. Two of the black girls in the office are always rapping on weaves. I don’t think I’m some Goody Two Shoes b/c I’ve never have one but when they ask for my opinion they always THINK that I am when I say “I don’t know.” One gal purchased a new wig and actually brought it to work to show the other girl. I mean, come on, black women. Stop that! Could you not...
Labor Day epicness
Labor Day was wonderful. I got to spend time with family and not.do.anything.
Which was wonderful!! I complain a lot about how busy I am. It’s quite the paradox because I don’t mind being so busy. Until it starts messing with my head. Which is usually all the time. I’ve been so overwhelmed lately. But underwhelmed too. My job no longer excites me so I put my energy into other...
Social media
Social media has given us this false sense of care. Even though Facebook and Twitter and public blogs give us the opportunity to share our lives with strangers and friends, we think that…they care.
Some do.
But most don’t.
And it’s so unfortunate that many of us have gotten so caught up in the e-space that we constantly put ourselves on blast. Marriages and pregnancies are...
August 2011
14 posts
Always something to be happy about...
I am so been slacking. With my appearance, I mean. It’s bad enough that I’ve gained so much weight. But I have really let myself go. Most days I don’t put on anything more than eyeliner and mascara. My wardrobe is a horror. My clothes are either too big or too small. Nothing fits well. Nothing. I could easily be on that show “What Not To Wear” because I am always wearing something...
Car won't start.
I really don’t feel like going through the hoopla that is GETTING it to start.
-I don’t feel like waiting 391 minutes for AAA.
-I don’t feel like sitting at a car shop.
-I don’t feel like seeing a crazy high bill that it will cost to get it fixed.
I just….don’t. I kinda just want to get in my car and go. But I can’t. Yesterday it stalled on me when I...
