I have to keep telling myself that.
It works most times. Today I’m struggling. My gyno called me in reference to my appointment last week and I have a bacterial infection. Nothing major. An antibiotic will get rid of it. The problem is, the antibiotic will more than likely result in a yeast infection. AND the bacteria may come back. It’s one of those reoccurring things. I also have another issue but the gyno says I have to treat one at a time. Neither issues are sexually transmitted.
They are just proof that my body hates me.
Which I’ve already known but my goodness…can my vagina give me a break? So many “issues” and so little money/patience. It makes me sad. I’m doing the best I can to stay healthy and it just sucks that no matter what I do…I am still a victim to….mess.
I know I’ll get over it but still…it’s a lot to handle. Esposo has been supportive and understanding but he’s a man. He’ll never know what it’s like to know that your body has so many chronic issues. Issues that may make conceiving difficult. I think about that, you know. I try not to because it makes me sad but I think about it.
Anyway.
I don’t want anything for Christmas. People keep asking me and if they could purchase “good health”, that would be all I’d want.
Anyway.
Prepping up to go to Maryland and I still haven’t purchased any winter clothes. Lame. This Christmas is 10x better than last year’s but I still feel some kinda way about not having enough money to get nice gifts. Granted I’d only be getting gifts for my Mom and husband but still…I can only afford small-scale stuffs.
I’m a little down and I thought writing this post would help but nope…
Off I go.
